Strife

Decide today that there is something great.

Should I ask you about your love and life;

Would you rather I talk about your hate?

On the morrow the day will end in strife.

There will be a time when you will shine.

By chance the end will not come in the dark.

There is one that I know wants to be mine.

When you got to this place there was a spark

I wished for this moment of the long day

Where I could sit and ponder at your words.

Now that this is the time we shall delay

All of those times that get cut into thirds.

But you now are so gone, you are not here

The person I once knew will disappear.

No amount of haircuts, piercings, lipstick, or outfits can change the fact that I miss you.

Doctor Who, Christmas lights hung in my fort, new haircut and piercing. What could I be sad about.

I miss you.

I am kind of homesick for people. I miss camp, a lot and everyone there. I miss Stephanie, but that's pretty much an ongoing feeling. I miss all my friends in different colleges, and the ones from here that transferred or dropped out. With this feeling come another feeling... I don't really feel like being with anyone here right now. This feeling will pass though and I will get over it, but for now that is how it is.

essentially

"Behold! God is my helper; the Lord is the sustainer of my soul" Psalm 54:4


I feel like I mostly just post about the positive things that are happening in my life, but there really aren't many negative things. Life is just so good because God is so good. This week God has really been showing me how much he provides. Always. The Lord is a provider and healer, at any time God provides exactly what I need even when I don't know it, even when I don't take it. He heals me even when I am unfaithful; through Him I am made whole. He is always faithful. He is always a provider. The best part is that He doesn't just provide for me. He provides for everyone. All seven billion of us, God provides for all.