lying

when I lie it all goes downhill.
Don't lie.
I hate lying.
I don't lie.
But when I do which is like once a month
It always turns out bad.
The truth is so much easier.

9:50

Dear itunes,

You are stupid. You keep freezing and it is upsetting me. Please just stop being difficult. I would love for my new apps to download, that would be great! When I go to the app store menu you freeze every time and and it's getting old.

Sincerely, Sadie Tubbs

9:55

an extra prescription of happy pills please

"happy pills...
I hope this lasts.
Right now I am great,
For no reason.
And I'm happy, all the time.
It's a continuous good mood.
I'm loving it.
I just hope it lasts.
Because they usually don't."


I wrote this in September.
and it didn't last.
I'm not depressed.
I'm not even sad.
I'm just kinda emotionless.
It's boring.
Everything is blah right now.
I want to change it but I don't know how.
I've been getting annoyed with people very easily lately,
and I don't like it because I say mean things that I don't mean.
I really, really hate being mean.
Sometimes though, I get lost.
I forget the in between of being pushed around and not being pushed around,
so I accidentally say mean things to people.
I hate being blah, because it just puts me in a negative mood.
I hope I get extra happy soon....

sorry for the randomness

I went Christmas shopping on Saturday I got almost everything done (: yay. and then I went to Ashley's party which was fun but I was the only senior which was kind of weird and i didn't know the girls that well. oh well whatever it was fun and i got this lip gloss that smells amazing...