Bandsick

Sometimes my heart yearns for the good old days of band. I miss the music. How beautiful it could be when we all jointly focused on trying. The new songs we would get and sight read and either immediately fall in love with it and be super excited, or hate it and dread playing it. I miss the people. The great times we had together at all the required stuff we had to do, and then because we were so close hanging out after we were done. The stupid drama that happened, because we were together so much. We were a family. I miss the giddy feeling I would get playing a pep tune at the basketball games. The hyperness that came from the joy of playing a song. Pounding the cow bell as loud as possible, banging the cymbals with might, playing cadences, marching to the beat, being terrified of H and also trying not to laugh when H was screaming at someone who wasn't you.

Ahhh band, I'm homesick for it.

Do not stand at my grave and weep,
I am not there; I do not sleep
I am the diamond glints on snow,
I am the sun on ripened grain,
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circling flight
I am the soft starlight at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry.
I am not there; I did not die.
-Mary Frye

snowsnoesnowsnoesnowoh ohoh ohoh

Andi: (about the snow) These are the biggest flakes of the year!
Me: You're the biggest flake of the year...
Andi: that was so funny, you have to quote is somewhere.

and so there it is.

Denny's trips

Whether you believe it or not, our Denny's trips continue to teach me something every time we have one. Last night there was a woman who came up to us and sat down and started talking to us. The first thing she asked us was if we went to church, eventually in the conversation she brought up the fact that her friends that she was with are lesbians. This didn't faze me at all. Apparently it bothered some other people who were with us, which in turn bothered me. Sometimes it is hard for me to understand the ignorance of people and that they were raised differently than I was.

Also, the time before last night that we went we found out that the "all you can eat" pancakes are not actually all you can eat, you can only get eight, therefore, last night Alyssa dubbed them the all you can eight pancakes. Bahahahaha! I have fantastic friends.

the end.

life is funny

It's so interesting to me, looking back, and seeing how everything in made life that has happened made me who I am. All the things that I might have thought were terrible then, now have had a positive impact on who I am now. I have a super blessed life, so it is hard for me to really know if it is like this for other people who may have had it tougher, but for all the hard things I have made it through I am better for it.