Teatime
By Emma McElhaney
I know how it feels
to spill the teapot of your love.
it splashes out, unintentionally,
and you hope and beg and wish and plead with everything you have
that the person its contents are meant for
will come along and see the mess you’ve made.
you want him to mop up all that sloppy love, every last drop,
and drink you down until you’re dry.
you want him to drown in it.
but sighs and hopes never seem to be sufficient.
so there you are.
just some sad broken china,
no longer perfect, no longer sought after, no longer the object of his admiration.
you lie there for a while; lifeless, empty, damaged to the point of unrecognizable,
with your warm heart and your bleeding soul and all your elegant innards ripped out, pooling around you,
temperature dropping hurriedly, without remorse.
it hurts.
it hurts so terribly bad to be broken.
but it hurts a great deal worse to be seen in such a sorry state,
only to be left behind by the one lover capable of repairing all your broken pieces.
Hello
Okay soo, 37 days until school is over :D
On Thursday my roommate and I are hosting a Happy Birthday Mr. Feeny party, we are so incredibly excited! (if you don't know who he is leave now... seriously) We are baking a cake and decorating and everything (:
I am not better yet so don't let this post fool you, but I want to be better, so therefore I am going to try. I'm going to try to stop throwing myself a pity party and try to be happy.
I was talking to a few of my friends tonight and they were saying nice things about me like that I'm fun, awesome, random, bubbly, gorgeous, etc. but I'm not bragging, the point is, it made me realize that even if he doesn't love me, they do, even if it is just a little bit, and they're all here for me when I need them. I've been so angry lately and I think, hopefully, that I am finally getting past that. I'm tired of being upset with my friends who don't deserve it. I am going to be a better person. I want to try to be at least. I want to be nice, but at the same time I don't want to be a pushover, so I will try my hardest to be both. I'm not saying that I'm not still in the worst pain I have ever felt, because I am, but I'm finally ready to let myself heal now. It isn't going to be easy. Wish me luck.
On Thursday my roommate and I are hosting a Happy Birthday Mr. Feeny party, we are so incredibly excited! (if you don't know who he is leave now... seriously) We are baking a cake and decorating and everything (:
I am not better yet so don't let this post fool you, but I want to be better, so therefore I am going to try. I'm going to try to stop throwing myself a pity party and try to be happy.
I was talking to a few of my friends tonight and they were saying nice things about me like that I'm fun, awesome, random, bubbly, gorgeous, etc. but I'm not bragging, the point is, it made me realize that even if he doesn't love me, they do, even if it is just a little bit, and they're all here for me when I need them. I've been so angry lately and I think, hopefully, that I am finally getting past that. I'm tired of being upset with my friends who don't deserve it. I am going to be a better person. I want to try to be at least. I want to be nice, but at the same time I don't want to be a pushover, so I will try my hardest to be both. I'm not saying that I'm not still in the worst pain I have ever felt, because I am, but I'm finally ready to let myself heal now. It isn't going to be easy. Wish me luck.
poem
"The most beautiful sea:
hasn’t been crossed yet.
The most beautiful child:
hasn’t grown up yet.
Our most beautiful days:
we haven’t seen yet.
And the most beautiful words I wanted to tell you
I haven’t said yet..”- by Nâzım Hikmet Ran
hasn’t been crossed yet.
The most beautiful child:
hasn’t grown up yet.
Our most beautiful days:
we haven’t seen yet.
And the most beautiful words I wanted to tell you
I haven’t said yet..”- by Nâzım Hikmet Ran
Wishes
The saddest thing is you could be anything that you could want
We could have been everything
But now we're not,
Now it's not anything at all
The hardest part was getting this close to you and giving up this dream I built with you, a fairytale that isn't coming true.
You've got some growing up to do
I wish we could have worked it out
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
After all the things you put me through
Tell me why I'm still in love with you
And why am i, why am i still waiting for your call
You broke my heart
I'm taking it back from you
And taking back the life I gave to you
Life goes on before and after you
I've got some growing up to do
We could have been everything
But now we're not,
Now it's not anything at all
The hardest part was getting this close to you and giving up this dream I built with you, a fairytale that isn't coming true.
You've got some growing up to do
I wish we could have worked it out
I wish I didn't have to wonder just what you are doing now
After all the things you put me through
Tell me why I'm still in love with you
And why am i, why am i still waiting for your call
You broke my heart
I'm taking it back from you
And taking back the life I gave to you
Life goes on before and after you
I've got some growing up to do
a talk with my favortie teacher of all time.
Sheler
Does he know that you feel like that?
Does he know the kind of comments that he makes that upset you?
Have you tried talking to him about it?
Yes to all of them and if you ask him about it he will probably sit there and tell you he didn’t do anything.
Well then screw him, there are other fish in the sea there are plenty of guys in the world.
If you really knew me you would know...
favorite color
favorite movie
my two biggest fears
favorite kind of ice cream
what I want to be when I grow up
two of my favorite bands
my favorite website
what i do the most on the internet
how i am currently doing
what my major is
a secret of mine
something i haven't told you ever, but you know anyway
I'm curious to see if anyone knows all these you could copy and paste the questions with the answers and leave them as a comment, or message me, it would probably make my day even if you didn't know the answers.
favorite movie
my two biggest fears
favorite kind of ice cream
what I want to be when I grow up
two of my favorite bands
my favorite website
what i do the most on the internet
how i am currently doing
what my major is
a secret of mine
something i haven't told you ever, but you know anyway
I'm curious to see if anyone knows all these you could copy and paste the questions with the answers and leave them as a comment, or message me, it would probably make my day even if you didn't know the answers.
just listen please
So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. And we're gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that, because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me? Please? Will you just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now, what's it look like? If it's with that guy, go! Go! I lost you once, I think I could do it again, if I thought it's what you really wanted. But don't you take the easy way out
listening to all those breakup songs that I could never relate to before...
Tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures and overanalyze your words, but the truth is that I've never fallen so hard; it's taking everything in me just to forget your sweater so far. So don't go worrying about me it's not like I think about you constantly... so maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect your life anymore. And I'll let you get the best of me because there's nothing else that I do well. I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker.
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you and what am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay? I'm falling to pieces.
You did not think when you sent me to the brink. You desired my attention but denied my affections, but tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart?
What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you and what am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay? I'm falling to pieces.
You did not think when you sent me to the brink. You desired my attention but denied my affections, but tell me now where was my fault, in loving you with my whole heart?
bowlingg
at my school they have this bowling event for freshman where your group dresses up to a certain theme and whoever has the coolest theme/ outfits wins... guess who's group won? HECK YEAH mine :D our theme was Mario Kart. here are some pictures
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| we were the kids playing the game |
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| from left to right, Toadette, Mario, Princess Peach, Princess Daisy, Luigi, bottom, stop light |
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