I cannot wait
to see my friends from college. everyone here is so immature. actually I just want to be back at school in general, it's so much more peaceful there.
you know those moments that are always shown in movies,
that every teenager is supposed to have?
I feel like I have a ton of great memories like that.
I feel very reminiscent right now so I will tell one of them, maybe I should right a book full of the short stories of my high school years haha.
Last summer my dad ran for state representative and almost every weekend my friends and I would walk in parades with my dad and hand out "reading material" as they called it. So one very hot day in the middle of July we were all on the way to a parade, all of my friends were riding in the car with me driving. We were listening to my ipod with all of the windows rolled down and an upbeat song came on. We proceeded to make up motions to the chorus and we each had our own air instruments that we were playing. Now here is the memory I have; picture seven teenagers in car, all the windows rolled down, belting out a song at the top of their lungs, while each playing their perspective air instruments. I miss moments like this.
more to follow?
I feel like I have a ton of great memories like that.
I feel very reminiscent right now so I will tell one of them, maybe I should right a book full of the short stories of my high school years haha.
Last summer my dad ran for state representative and almost every weekend my friends and I would walk in parades with my dad and hand out "reading material" as they called it. So one very hot day in the middle of July we were all on the way to a parade, all of my friends were riding in the car with me driving. We were listening to my ipod with all of the windows rolled down and an upbeat song came on. We proceeded to make up motions to the chorus and we each had our own air instruments that we were playing. Now here is the memory I have; picture seven teenagers in car, all the windows rolled down, belting out a song at the top of their lungs, while each playing their perspective air instruments. I miss moments like this.
more to follow?
tonight,
I was having a short conversation with my friend about people's thoughts on gay/lesbian people. He was telling me about how his parents think it's a sin and that it's a choice, but he believes that isn't true. I have never judged any of my gay friends, but I never really knew where I stood on my beliefs about homosexuality. I wasn't sure whether it is a sin, or a choice or whatever there is to think about, but our conversation today made me realize something. He said that it isn't her right to judge him, and if it's anyone's it's God's. That is when I realized that I don't need to decide how I feel about it, because it isn't my place to. I have never told anyone it is wrong to be gay and it isn't my place to, honestly, I have never really viewed my gay friends differently. My friends are my friends, and I don't really care who they date haha. That's about it for tonight..
Hello Hello Hello,
Meet me halfway? Right on the borderline is where I'm going to wait for you.
Alrighty, I'm tired of working already, I've been working about four days a week at night, also, I have been babysitting three times a week, but money is money I guess.
I talked to Jon for a while on Monday and I guess we are going to try to start talking again, we'll see it goes.
So, I am a person who literally cannot hold a grudge for very long, and most people say that it is a huge strength of mine, but sometimes I'm not so sure, I think it may also be a weakness. I feel like the fact that I let everyone off easily makes them think that they can do something terrible to me and get away with it. I hate that. I don't want people to not care whether they hurt me or not just because I won't be mad for very long and some people who I let off the hook easily don't deserve it, they don't deserve to be in my life yet I let them right back in. I don't know this is just one thing I have been thinking about lately.
Another thing I have been thinking about a lotish this week; the line between honesty, kindness, and being pushed around. This is super hard for me to define. Because so many people in my life have been dishonest I think I have taken it upon myself to be the most honest person everyone knows, which becomes hard at times, not because I want to lie, but because I think I am too honest. When I am too honest it is hard for me to see the line between being honest and unkind. Then with kindness, I feel like a lot of people are fake with the way they are nice to other and it is hard for me to be like that because I don't want to be fake. I don't know what to do at this point, I'm just trying really hard to just be as honest as I need to be and be super nice to everyone.
These are the complexes of my life as of now haha I hope you enjoyed, if you have any advice let me know.
Alrighty, I'm tired of working already, I've been working about four days a week at night, also, I have been babysitting three times a week, but money is money I guess.
I talked to Jon for a while on Monday and I guess we are going to try to start talking again, we'll see it goes.
So, I am a person who literally cannot hold a grudge for very long, and most people say that it is a huge strength of mine, but sometimes I'm not so sure, I think it may also be a weakness. I feel like the fact that I let everyone off easily makes them think that they can do something terrible to me and get away with it. I hate that. I don't want people to not care whether they hurt me or not just because I won't be mad for very long and some people who I let off the hook easily don't deserve it, they don't deserve to be in my life yet I let them right back in. I don't know this is just one thing I have been thinking about lately.
Another thing I have been thinking about a lotish this week; the line between honesty, kindness, and being pushed around. This is super hard for me to define. Because so many people in my life have been dishonest I think I have taken it upon myself to be the most honest person everyone knows, which becomes hard at times, not because I want to lie, but because I think I am too honest. When I am too honest it is hard for me to see the line between being honest and unkind. Then with kindness, I feel like a lot of people are fake with the way they are nice to other and it is hard for me to be like that because I don't want to be fake. I don't know what to do at this point, I'm just trying really hard to just be as honest as I need to be and be super nice to everyone.
These are the complexes of my life as of now haha I hope you enjoyed, if you have any advice let me know.
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